Wednesday April 13, 2011

Surprisingly today was a lot harder than yesterday although getting that first pill down was way tougher than taking the second.  Urges to drink were strong.  And if there had been a way to drink without getting sick, I would have.  But I would rather not drink than feel nauseous and vomit all day.  Plus I knew the urges would pass.  But man I wanted that buzz.  Mmmmmm... I can close my eyes and imagine the feeling now.  Why can't I be one of those people who can stop after two drinks?  I envy them sometimes.  Now is one of those times.