Sunday April 10, 2011

Still can't make myself to get prescription filled.  Then I won't have any excuses not to take it.  If I don't have it I can't take it right?  But I knew it inevitable.  I had to.  Uggghhh I can't begin to put into words the dread I was feeling.  I don't think anyone except an alcoholic would understand this.  Or maybe anyone that's had any kind of addiction.  Took kids to the beach so that helped with the urges to drink as well as not being able to buy it on Sundays.  However, the beach was in a state I could have bought it and don't think I didn't try to come up with some sort of scheme to do it.  But with my oldest daughter in the car...it was next to impossible.  So I satisfied myself with the thoughts that Monday would be here very very soon and I would drink that day and take my first pill that night!!!!  Case settled.  Done deal.  I'm happy!!!!!!