Today's the day. Getting medicine filled. Drinking for the last time and taking the medicine. I'm happy and I'm sad. I'm excited but I'm bitter. I envy the people who can drink and stop whenever they want to. I have 5 kids. I'm doing this for them. I love God. I'm doing this for Him. Gosh why didn't I listen to Him when He first told me He wanted me to quit. Years ago....I wouldn't be here. How different my life would be if I had only been obedient the first time I heard Him speak. Fast forward Natalie....past is forgiven...
9:00 wal mart...they have the medicine in stock. uuggghhh gosh I was so hoping they didn't. Waiting for it to be filled I picked up my last two bottles. (omgosh I am fighting tears thinking about this. This is very emotional for me) Oak Leaf Chardonnay. 2.77 per bottle Good and cheap. My favorite was Barefoot...the workers at El Cheapo knew me...went there almost everyday for a year. Sometimes twice a day. 7.27 with tax.
9:45 Picked up meds. Read all about it and found out I can't drink 12 hours before taking it. Completely ruins my plans for the day as I always planned my day around drinking. I spent 30 minutes trying to figure out how to make it work. I did and I drank. Both bottles. But that was it.
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