Thursday April 14, 2011

Too much going on to really think about drinking.  This time last week I was planning my day around my drinking.  I was going to Bible study and as soon as it was over, I would rush home so I could down my bottle before my two girls got home from school.  If time permitted, I would sleep a little to help me not be so tired so we could do homework.  This week though is different.  It's day three on antabuse so no need to plan.  There will be no drinking.  So I went to Bible study with no anxiety about getting out quickly.  I was going to run to the mall to take shoes back for my 9 year old.  The thought of wine crossed my mind a time or two but as quickly as it came, it left.  Why keep my focus on that?  It just makes me mad that I have no choice.  Anyway, car broke down but praise God it was right across the street from a Chevy place.  They were able to tell me what was wrong, but of course all dealerships ( well most ) usually charge way too much so I ended up leaving it with another mechanic.  Thursday ended up being a really really good day.  No strong urges or cravings even though I had the issue with the car!!!!!  I felt good!!!!